Two weeks ago I was having a terrible time and I was being really awful to myself. I spent two days moping around the house playing victim to my woes. I didn't do any art, I didn't go outside, didn't workout and I was a generally crappy person to be around.
One week ago I spent two nights in the woods near Mt. Hood with with the awesome people pictured below, and read The War of Art (read the post here). I gotta say, reading that one book really has helped me recognise my resistance, to be nicer to myself, helped me show up and do the work, and helped me re-realise that how I spend my time is entirely up to me. 
I made a number of commitments and this post is a followup (keep myself accountable) post.
So far I have followed through with all of the commitments I made plus a few extras, and I'm not writing this to brag, I'm just feeling proud of myself. I feel really happy right now.
- I have been using my calendar! Yay! Check it out! I take a little time on Monday to fill this in, and it is flexible
- I haven't missed a day of meditation
- I have re-established my workout routine (oh the burn!)
- I drank alcohol only once in the last week (man it felt good to have a break!)
- I have been letting myself be creative and let myself draw/paint whatever I feel like rather than trying to force it
- I received two commission requests this week
- I am reading Overcoming Underearning (Thanks Toku)
- I'm at a co-working meet up right now and have another scheduled for Wednesday
- I really reconnected with my oldest and best friend
- A friend asked to collaborate with me on a small business venture
In my previous post I talked about keeping my three buckets equally full, and that my overall sense of fulfillment and success is a reflection of where I focus my attention. This last week I have made an effort to top up all three buckets, and I really have noticed the difference.
The thing for me is not trapping myself into a mindset of "have to". I don't have to do any of these things, but I can make a choice each day to show up and do the work, to be nice to myself, to say "thank you, I've got this" to my resistance. The hard part is recognising when your resistance is trying to help or hinder you.
I would love to know if this resonates with you, if you also sometimes let your resistance control your mindset, or if you can recognise and acknowledge it and say "thanks, but I'm OK".
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Thanks for reading,
Zoe